Since Ive grasped the concept of self reflection, started somewhere in the teens years, Ive been adept at spending a good amount of time inside of my own head. As a matter of fact if you count the time spent bein an only/last child (yes I kno those are opposing ideals but wen ur closest sibling is 12 years older than you and lives away u fall into both categories) Ive always had quite the active imagination as long as I can ever remember. Toys became real, which was only further perpetuated by Toy Story...still unsure if I trust them, but I digress, I could make anything a game and anything a plaything so I was rarely alone but wen my thirst for adventure and winning championships died (avid wrestling fan and not ashamed to admit it) I started to shift to trying to understand the quirkiness of others and wat makes them tick.....
Now that came easy because as much as people dont want to admit it, they act very similarly to characters they see on tv and in doin so Ive grown to accurately predict most from a young age due to a high ingestion of the pictocube. Now after I'd conquered that mountain, which took most of highschool, I started with me and realized that it wouldnt be as easy as it was to unravel that tapestry.
The person I was and am is quite complex, not to say others arent but there are a lotta layers here. Certain times have me seriously believing that I suffer from multiple personalities jus due to how Im able to adapt and usually able to fit in everywhere. Throughout high school I jus acted and rarely cared about the consequences simple because I didnt have the ability to realize wen I was an ass or annoying or smart or aggressive or watever really (hence the Mercyless title - shout out to BG) and wen I hit young man status I realized that wasnt a road I wanted to continue down, I like people as annoying as their capable of being and I like being liked, girly I kno but true and I wanted to make sure there wasnt anymore acting nor unintentional douchebaggery on my part anymore, if I was an ass it would be in spurts and only wen funny.
For me ignorance has not been bliss in terms of myself, I want to understand everything about wat makes me tick so that no on can ever have anything new to criticize me with that I didnt already kno and try to correct. Now does this make me better than most, probably but the fact that I kno it is the best asset, it allows a certain humility this amount of knowledge requires to avoid being a dick.
Now onto the title, my headspace. Its a complex place where things are constantly reviewed and broken down only to be built up and broken down again. Its my own personal Inception (easily the movie of 2010) but I digress (I'll do that A LOT) so jus kno if you've had a conversation with me the nuts and bolts wont always be the same but the message will be turned over so often in my head jus because its how I process and its a gift and a curse.
Which brings me to the point of this blog, to provide me an outlet to step outside of that headspace at times and jus see the things Im goin thru... Now I talk waaaay too much so Im gonna have to cap entries I want people to see jus to avoid blogger syndrome (BS), a disease Ive diagnosed as the tendency to scan long(er) blogs for key words and repeating them back to the blogger and then for both or either to write jus for the sake of writing (imma blog about it later lol) So since I have no idea how or wat should be done to wrap this up Im jus gonna give Mr.Derulo some shine since his name is now and forever synonymous wit homo.....but his chin strap is hella straightened tho.....Im jus sayin
@ItsJus2Easy
Now that came easy because as much as people dont want to admit it, they act very similarly to characters they see on tv and in doin so Ive grown to accurately predict most from a young age due to a high ingestion of the pictocube. Now after I'd conquered that mountain, which took most of highschool, I started with me and realized that it wouldnt be as easy as it was to unravel that tapestry.
The person I was and am is quite complex, not to say others arent but there are a lotta layers here. Certain times have me seriously believing that I suffer from multiple personalities jus due to how Im able to adapt and usually able to fit in everywhere. Throughout high school I jus acted and rarely cared about the consequences simple because I didnt have the ability to realize wen I was an ass or annoying or smart or aggressive or watever really (hence the Mercyless title - shout out to BG) and wen I hit young man status I realized that wasnt a road I wanted to continue down, I like people as annoying as their capable of being and I like being liked, girly I kno but true and I wanted to make sure there wasnt anymore acting nor unintentional douchebaggery on my part anymore, if I was an ass it would be in spurts and only wen funny.
For me ignorance has not been bliss in terms of myself, I want to understand everything about wat makes me tick so that no on can ever have anything new to criticize me with that I didnt already kno and try to correct. Now does this make me better than most, probably but the fact that I kno it is the best asset, it allows a certain humility this amount of knowledge requires to avoid being a dick.
Now onto the title, my headspace. Its a complex place where things are constantly reviewed and broken down only to be built up and broken down again. Its my own personal Inception (easily the movie of 2010) but I digress (I'll do that A LOT) so jus kno if you've had a conversation with me the nuts and bolts wont always be the same but the message will be turned over so often in my head jus because its how I process and its a gift and a curse.
Which brings me to the point of this blog, to provide me an outlet to step outside of that headspace at times and jus see the things Im goin thru... Now I talk waaaay too much so Im gonna have to cap entries I want people to see jus to avoid blogger syndrome (BS), a disease Ive diagnosed as the tendency to scan long(er) blogs for key words and repeating them back to the blogger and then for both or either to write jus for the sake of writing (imma blog about it later lol) So since I have no idea how or wat should be done to wrap this up Im jus gonna give Mr.Derulo some shine since his name is now and forever synonymous wit homo.....but his chin strap is hella straightened tho.....Im jus sayin
@ItsJus2Easy
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