I know that Im viewed as what people may call a people person but honestly I CANT stand most people (I underlined most simply because I have a feeling that line will hurt a lotta feelings). Its my dirty little secret (shhh) I like to interact with and meet people and learn their foibles and what makes them tick but after that initial interest dissipates... Im good. Sadly Im jus too much of a "people person" to fully let myself just disappear because sometimes I'll get hit the classic "we dont ever talk anymore" line and feel guilty because I gave them a taste of this (gestures to all of me) and then jus took it off the market (kinda like the Ribwich...Its back now tho). So this is my affliction, I cant take the overall douchebaggery that comes along with communicating and being "friends" with most people but their quirks sustain me so Im kinda stuck (I crossed out that most cause I cant stand douchebaggery). Yet still I find myself cyclically doing it time and time again. I find someone who intrigues me and is quirky and then get bored or annoyed or jus feel like keeping to myself and they get offended and hate me or need a "break" from me and it takes on a life of its own.
Time and time againmany of my friendships have taken an abrupt nosedive and Ive realized Ive come to care less and less simply because I keep my circle tighter than a mafia don's daughters snatch and if you cant penetrate that then I dont really care... sorry (#kanyeshrug) Now I dont want you to think I go around letting people in to reject them because Im definitely not that big a douche ( I mean I kno Im big but not giant...SEE: South Park stupid youtube). Theres the other side of the coin and those are jus the people who suck. They cant hold nor start conversations except of course for the initial one or random occurrences that reminds you why you took a shine to them in the first place. I mean honestly 1 word answers? Its 2011 (lol that is quite possibly the WORST justification ever) But seriously, if Im tryin to elicit a conversation and I get "k" repeatedly dont be surprised when you dont hear from me...k?
Ive also noticed that I steer clear of emotion and/or drama. No offense to any of my emotional peoples but I jus cannot take it. I never feel more awkward than when someone is emoting all over me. I mean to say I understand not everyone is a cyborg and we all have our moments (even me....no Im lying) where we jus need to "vent" or cry on a shoulder and Im good to be there for a couple of those but if that starts becoming a trend dont be offended if I decide to hit the ol' dusty trail. I often find that I check out in dramatic or emotional situaions and leave my body there jus because something in my physical makeup cant deal with all that *shudders* #Cyborg
*sigh* Ive been told that I should jus lower my expectations of people since I will consistently be let down but I jus, in good conscience, cannot do that. It feels like Im throwing in the towel and allowing people to be douchebags and thats jus awfulness in every sense of the made up word. I know I cant save the world and I dont plan on being a martyr or anything for the cause because I realize some people are beyond saving and their doomed to lameness (you don't know who you are) but if I can help several people be less lame than its a victory for us all.... altho I still wonder "Why Bother?"
Could be worse tho, I can jus give into the hate and embrace the inner Coach Mcguirk:
Time and time again
Ive also noticed that I steer clear of emotion and/or drama. No offense to any of my emotional peoples but I jus cannot take it. I never feel more awkward than when someone is emoting all over me. I mean to say I understand not everyone is a cyborg and we all have our moments (even me....no Im lying) where we jus need to "vent" or cry on a shoulder and Im good to be there for a couple of those but if that starts becoming a trend dont be offended if I decide to hit the ol' dusty trail. I often find that I check out in dramatic or emotional situaions and leave my body there jus because something in my physical makeup cant deal with all that *shudders* #Cyborg
*sigh* Ive been told that I should jus lower my expectations of people since I will consistently be let down but I jus, in good conscience, cannot do that. It feels like Im throwing in the towel and allowing people to be douchebags and thats jus awfulness in every sense of the made up word. I know I cant save the world and I dont plan on being a martyr or anything for the cause because I realize some people are beyond saving and their doomed to lameness (you don't know who you are) but if I can help several people be less lame than its a victory for us all.... altho I still wonder "Why Bother?"
Could be worse tho, I can jus give into the hate and embrace the inner Coach Mcguirk:
@ItsJus2Easy
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