I'm Bossy....
No I'm not tryin to be the 1st one to scream on a blog, that's a completely different (insane) type of bossy, one I don't think I have the hips (or bathing suit) for. No my friends, I'm referring to the bossy where I jus tell people what to do a lot. It isn't the greatest of traits, & I realize how annoying it is for those closest to me (sorry) but I've taken the 1st in what I hope to be several (Please be no more than 3, I've got other things to worry about) steps to coping with it.
Fact is I'm not gonna not be bossy, its in my coding, its in my nature. My parents set me up. My mom is an in charge nurse who seems to be everyones go to for advice (and I'm not all too sure why, she's qute the hothead) since she's "seen it all". My dad is like the unofficial leader of his crew since he organizes them & they always seemed to meet at our house & in growing up in that, I've been able to see how (sadly) lost they can be without him. All people from kids to grown ass men need some sort of leadership. Check every aspect of life, there's more often than not a leader even among leaders. My point? I knew this from early on and took that mantle more often than not. Sometimes it was willingly sometimes unwillingly but the point was I knew it needed to be done & did it.
I boss kids around for a living. Sure I'm more polite about it than many others who do it but the fact is I boss em around (to protect them from themselves...possible justification but it helps me sleep at night) I also from time to time work with people who....could benefit from some good mentoring (let's put it that way to spare some feelings). Since I do my job pretty well, I often have a fair amount of tips & knowledge to share not to mention the fact that I sometimes "take over" in a way of leading by example & hoping that my example sticks. Sometimes it doesn't and I then have to jus grab em by the back of the neck and be like AY (I'm partially lying) but different strokes for different folks right?
And of course there's my personal life. Might seem repetitive since I discussed my bossing origins already but I have a different point to make, bear with me (I'm doin it again). I realized recently (it was quite humbling) that I take on more of a parental role to some.... That isn't cool, at least not to me. Some like to feel like the world will end if not for their interference & as much as I like to feel needed & important, that mentality has never really been one I can rock with. Undue sense of self worth is really jus sad. Its not my job to make sure others do theirs. As much as I care & am invested I can't make someone do what they don't wanna (I can, oh best believe I can, but I'd rather not) I figured, I do this for a plethora of reasons but most evidently because I don't want someone not doing their job to negatively affect me. Its not that I distrust or don't believe in people (Ikinda do) its the fact that if they fuck up and it affects me and I
could have helped to prevent it... Well let's jus say I won't be a
happy camper & that's putting it the mildest way possible. The
solution you say? Well I'm not really sure of one. Push too hard and ur bound to frustrate, push too little and you leave yourself wide ass open to disappointment and frustration. Usually there's a balance there but
since I haven't found it yet so I can't really paint a happy ending of a
picture where I learned how to lead without demanding too much (not what
you were expecting huh?) What I have figured out is that people require a light touch, I jus gotta figure out how to touch them gently (pause). I'm still (fairly) young & I have a good
amount of time to work on it & figure it out but till then, I accept
the cards I'm dealt and the role I chose. I'm gonna take my foot off
the gas more but at the end of the day, I'm still The Boss... No Tony Danza
No I'm not tryin to be the 1st one to scream on a blog, that's a completely different (insane) type of bossy, one I don't think I have the hips (or bathing suit) for. No my friends, I'm referring to the bossy where I jus tell people what to do a lot. It isn't the greatest of traits, & I realize how annoying it is for those closest to me (sorry) but I've taken the 1st in what I hope to be several (Please be no more than 3, I've got other things to worry about) steps to coping with it.
Fact is I'm not gonna not be bossy, its in my coding, its in my nature. My parents set me up. My mom is an in charge nurse who seems to be everyones go to for advice (and I'm not all too sure why, she's qute the hothead) since she's "seen it all". My dad is like the unofficial leader of his crew since he organizes them & they always seemed to meet at our house & in growing up in that, I've been able to see how (sadly) lost they can be without him. All people from kids to grown ass men need some sort of leadership. Check every aspect of life, there's more often than not a leader even among leaders. My point? I knew this from early on and took that mantle more often than not. Sometimes it was willingly sometimes unwillingly but the point was I knew it needed to be done & did it.
I boss kids around for a living. Sure I'm more polite about it than many others who do it but the fact is I boss em around (to protect them from themselves...possible justification but it helps me sleep at night) I also from time to time work with people who....could benefit from some good mentoring (let's put it that way to spare some feelings). Since I do my job pretty well, I often have a fair amount of tips & knowledge to share not to mention the fact that I sometimes "take over" in a way of leading by example & hoping that my example sticks. Sometimes it doesn't and I then have to jus grab em by the back of the neck and be like AY (I'm partially lying) but different strokes for different folks right?
And of course there's my personal life. Might seem repetitive since I discussed my bossing origins already but I have a different point to make, bear with me (I'm doin it again). I realized recently (it was quite humbling) that I take on more of a parental role to some.... That isn't cool, at least not to me. Some like to feel like the world will end if not for their interference & as much as I like to feel needed & important, that mentality has never really been one I can rock with. Undue sense of self worth is really jus sad. Its not my job to make sure others do theirs. As much as I care & am invested I can't make someone do what they don't wanna (I can, oh best believe I can, but I'd rather not) I figured, I do this for a plethora of reasons but most evidently because I don't want someone not doing their job to negatively affect me. Its not that I distrust or don't believe in people (I
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